Saturday was race day - the Governor's Cup 8K. I ran this race last year, so I knew I was in for a challenge. The 5 mile route is hilly, with some nice downhill sections but also some uphill treks. Last year, I didn't know what to expect. I hadn't previewed the course, so I didn't know about mile 4. Mile 4 is the runner's arch nemesis, a steep prolonged incline at the end of the course. Already tired from the previous miles, mile 4 is a test of wills to see how badly you want to make it to the finish line. Last year, I didn't want it bad enough. I was exhausted and gave in, walking my way through the final mile and feeling utterly defeated. This year, I wanted redemption badly, and I wanted to conquer the defeat of last year and wanted to finish strong.
As I prepared for Saturday, that hill was in the forefront of my mind, the daunting challenge awaiting me at the end of the race. I knew it was coming; I was ready for it this time... or so I thought. I started strong, but made sure to conserve energy. I coasted through mile 3 and summoned my resolve for hill 4. As I started up the incline, though, my calves started burning, my legs started aching. Others around me were walking. Fatigue was setting in. Doubt was setting in. And before I knew it, I was thinking about giving up, again.
But I didn't. This time, my resolve was firm. I wanted it badly. I focused on the finish line, even though I couldn't see it. I thought about how often I give up and give in to doubt or choose to settle for less than God's best. I want more out of life that that, even when it requires sacrifice, even when it hurts, even when I can't see the end in sight. I want to trust that God has good things in store, that He is glorified in my efforts when I give my all and trust Him to sustain me, to strengthen me, to see me through to the other side.
I finished strong yesterday, and I learned something about myself in the process. I also experienced again God as Sustainer and Provider, the one who gives strength to the weary who press on toward the prize.
Please pray for me as I continue on this journey to the half. from here on out, I will be pushing my limits and my distance. I have never run further than 5 miles. I am venturing into unfamiliar territory and daunting distances. But I so want to glorify God in my running and in my training. Pray that I will be disciplined and available and for warmth during cold runs. :)
Have a great week!
ELP
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